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I am seriously upset right now.
end of last year, I misplace my sketchbook
that little taylor's sketchbook really mean a lot to me
I wrote every single pieces of my artwork inside
Poems and lyrics

Lucky for poems
I did post some of it on Myspace

Unfortunately for my songs
The original copy is inside my old memory card that already corrupted
The backup copy is in Faiqah handphone that had been stolen
and also in her laptop that had just been formated
Besides that, I do not have any other backup
Why?
Because by that time, I am not yet ready to let anyone listen to it
Except from Faiqah who secara curi-curi bluetooth semua lagu tu

In addition to my sorrow
I just remember two of those songs
dan yang lain saya sudah ingat-ingat lupa
saya perlukan lirik dan melodi saya!!!!
shit!!!!

I keep questioning myself why am I too stupid to never let any other person have the copy of it
Why I did not trust my friends
Why am I scared of people opinion towards the songs
I do regret all that now!
:(

take me away

langit sangat cantik
ombak sangat menarik
bayu sangat indah

tolong bawa aku lari
ke mana-mana teluk
biar aku dekat dengan pantai
sebab aku sangat rindu

Rempit !!!

I HEART THEM

not more than a song

tiba-tiba ku jatuh cinta pada seseorang
rindu yang menusuk di hati ingin ku leraikan
biarkanlah ku sendiri
ku tak bisa mencintai

sesungguhnya
aku takut untuk jatuh cinta lagi
sesungguhnya
aku ingin untuk terus menjauhi
oh no
ku jatuh cinta lagi

luka di hati masih tak mampu tuk ku berdiri
tak ingin aku untuk bercinta lagi
biarkanlah ku sendiri
ku tak bisa mencintai

sesungguhnya
aku takut untuk jatuh cinta lagi
sesungguhnya
aku ingin untuk terus menjauhi
oh no
ku jatuh cinta lagi

static

girls LIKE cool boys

but

girls HATE boys that too cold

am i that bored?

guess what have i done?
i just finish reviewing some Part 2 notes.

nerd right?
it just the effect of being too boring
plus too free
sumpah.i got nothing else to do

i look at my facebook page
nothing much interesting

i look in my movie folder
nothing did attract my attention

i look at my yahoo messenger
i saw some friends online
but i don't know who to buzz
kind of afraid that i will disturb them
so just leave it idle

so as the result of being too nice and too nerdy
i got some picture on next sem subject

MTC037 : Introduction to Law II
MTC038 : Library and Information Processing Skill
MTC039 : Introduction to Social Psychology
BEL313 : Critical Thinking
BEL260 : (somehing to do with MUET)


someone please save me from doing all this.
it does seem weird.
studying during holiday is SO NOT ME!

takde kerja jom buang masa

baru 2 minggu cuti dah bosan
DANG!
macam mana nak hadapi lagi 6 minggu?

keluar bandar?
bukan la idea yang baik.
mega.ec.
bosan bosan bosan!

picnic?
sounds cool.
tapi tak kan nak picnic dengan amira je.
tu dah macam date nama nyer.
wee^^
haha

adilla.cepat la habis final!
i want to hug you.
sleepover kat rumah aku jom.
:D

and one more thing.
kenapalah budak diploma cuti lambat sangat wey!

nightmare

is it a sign for me to STOP ?

a GIRL will do

pagi tadi pergi teman kak ngah ke klinik.
agak lama ya menanti.DAMN!
tapi seronok.sangat ramai ibu-ibu mengandung di situ.haha
baby juga ada di mana-mana.
BEST!

motif ke sana is to scan the baby
nak tengok jantina dia
sumpah.while waiting my heart was pounding and beating so hardly.
nervous.excited.all in one.
abang ipar aku cakap aku poyo.haha
aku pon rasa aku poyo.
kakak aku punya baby pon aku dah cuak over semacam.
anak aku sendiri nanti camne la ek;)

so doctor Kho buat 4D scan.
OMG!
the first time i saw the baby inside the tummy, i can't close my mouth.
THE BABY IS SMILING!
it is too wonderful:D
cute sangat.

ok.then come to the part where the doctor going to reveal the baby's gender.
doctor cakap baby GIRL!
owh.nampaknya dia akan kaya dengan baju gaun dan pelbagai mainan menarik.
haha.

tarikh due baby dalam 23rd of August.
semoga baby comel selamat di lahirkan.AMIN~

*gambar scan baby ada tapi abang ayek and kak ngah tak bagi upload.diorang cakap nk simpan diam-diam.haha.tp baby sangat comel.*

HISTORY

i have when trough a quite rough time before
a time when tears become part of me
a time when crying is the greatest activity
i would like to refer that time as Dark Moment

During the Dark Moment
i use to sit by the corner
while watching people dancing
they were so happy
while I am just sitting there quietly
being accompanied by loneliness

During the Dark Moment
no one saw me
no one ever care about me
but there was something that everyone did
THEY TOOK ME FOR GRANTED
exception for a few people who did care for me
but time and place separated us apart

But after meditate for quite a while
i continue moving with my life
enjoy my life alone
it was not good
however it wasn't that bad as well
by that so called Renaissance Moment
i just try to appreciate my life more
and appreciate myself more than others

When I was sitting alone
suddenly i saw a small light of hope
and i am so lucky when the light shining more brighter day by day
I just don't want the light to dissapear

one thing that i realise through all this moments is i have plenty of good friends
they have always been in my life.
they do care about me.
therefore i never give a damn if i have new friends that throwing me away.

one more thing is by losing a friend, you are going to receive a plenty more valuable friends.
so do not feel too down or depress