point of realization

ok...
nw m sick n tired of all diz...
i've lock my heart n my mind frm tinking of that stupid tings...
it ws meaningles...
i kep searching n hoping...
bt i neva get any positive result from it...
i find none of it
y m i 2 easy 2 fal in love???
so nw...
i jz wan 2 layback n stop searching...
jz njoy myself 2 da fulest witout any love ones
jz wait until it cum by itself...
bt if it didnt cum...den 4get it...
m nt desperate enuf..
i wont die witout love...
bt i wil die witout peace...
bsides i already haf da loves frm my family...
da love dat wil neva die..n imortal...
rite????