HURT

it never hurt this much before
sumpah..sakit sangat sangat
never thought that it will end up feeling this bad

i want to cry
i want to let this feeling out
but it seems like i can't
it involves many heart that i need to put into consideration

faking myself is the best way
acting like it mean nothing is the perfect resolution
but until when i can endure the pain?
until when i can stand pretending like nothing is happening?

no one else can i blame
its my fault
i choose to keep it as a secret
and to hide it from others

but at the same time
to let only me myself know about this
its like the most perfect choice that i had ever made
because i believe it will help me undergo all this..will it?

thanks to 'dia'
i will now trying my best to forget 'you'
besides..'you' and i..we don't have anything to do with each other
we are just friends...just like 'dia' and i...
maybe friendship is important than this complicated stupid loser stuff

to 'you' and 'dia':
sorry that i never tell the truth
cause i don't think that truth is important in this matter
by saying truth won't change anything
i want to be honest when the right time comes
however..i don't think its coming

therefore,
im backing off
sorry for everything that i did
and sorry in advance if i do anything bad in the future

sincerely from the bottom of my heart,
thank you

-memory erase-